I Don't Care Where You Are, I Don't Care Why You Aren't.

"...he enclosed pieces of string that he used to measure out his body--his head, thigh, forearm, finger, neck, everything. He wanted me to sleep with them under my pillow. He said that when he came back, we would remeasure his body against the string as proof that he hadn't changed"

The things we're used to doing:

We spend 365 days writing 2009 in the right corner of our papers. After January 1st it takes us a few more days to get it right to 2010. In the summers we would drive to my brother's school on the way to work and then remember that he wasn't in the backseat anymore. You set an extra plate at the table, you set the alarm and say goodnight to the newly vacant pillow beside you. You try to get to sleeping and dreaming so you can see them through the night while they're not physically present in your days.

Sometimes as I'm getting into bed I reach for my phone to say goodnight, and then realize I can't do that anymore. Sad isn't even the word to describe moving across the country where you live and find that maybe distance was better for us. No one goes into a relationship hoping that by the end of it, things are so messed up and on such bad terms that there's no chance of friendship being anywhere near salvageable. Some things are better left unsaid. And sometimes it's better to leave things the way they are than making them worse.

You used to talk to someone daily, and now you don't remember how their voice sounds. You see their picture but you don't recognize their face. You don't know them anymore and maybe you never did.

Fiction. Kind of.

Today's Entertainment News

SAG AWARDS! I mentioned in an earlier post that Awards show season is like Christmas season for me. I think the SAG awards are my favorite. I was SO excited that my friend Patrick Gallagher won an award for best ensemble for GLEE!!!! :D
I don't know why it is that I don't cry very often during sad movies, or emotional episodes of Grey's Anatomy... but turn on an awards show and I'm sobbing. It's amazing. I get to watch every actor that I admire so much go up there and see their dreams come true.
I was bawling during Betty White's lifetime achievement award speech.
"I was only 88 last sunday, so I've still got lots of stuff to do!"
I want to be that old and passionate, driven, and still kicking.
I think Drew Barrymore said it best during her acceptance speech:
"I feel really sick and nervous right now. And that is a good thing because when you feel that way I think you are on the right path"

• There's an internet rumor that Johnny Depp is dead... do not fret, Jack Sparrow still lives.
• Hope For Haiti numbers are in, they've raised 58 million to date.
• TODAY ONLY all purchases made on Lady Gaga's website will go towards Haiti
• You may be hearing rumors of Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt breaking up, but their reps are saying that this is not true and they are stronger than ever.
• And here's a picture of Chris Brown that maybe didn't make a wise decision getting involved in this photo op. He's with designer John Paul Gaultier, who has makeup on to look like he had been punched in the face to match his boxing-themed collection during Paris' fashion week.
  

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TGIF!! "I hope you have a very nice weekend. Maybe someone will catch your eye and you'll both smile and that'll be that. No complications. No heartbreak. Just that one warm moment! OR Maybe you'll get wicked laid. It's a magical world"

I started this blog 11 days ago and we're at 1000 hits!!! Thank you so much!
It's the weekend. Tiffany and I are going for dinner with Matt Zhou. I have to study. I have to buy new video-editing software. I have to submit myself for more auditions. I have to prepare for my new role coming up very soon! I have to meet with my new vocal coach. I have to mail some letters that have been lying around. I have to avoid the boy at the post office. I have to stop putting myself in awkward situations. I have to remember to use my fake name when I put myself in awkward situations. I have remember to stop putting myself in awkward situations where I have to use my fake name.

When I first moved to Toronto, I changed my phone number to the local area code. I went to Rogers with my dad and Tiffany and spent a few minutes talking to the Rogers employee about phones and things to do in Toronto since I was new to the city. We successfully changed my phone number and we were on our way. A few minutes later I got my first text message on my new phone number... FROM THE ROGERS EMPLOYEE. "I'd love to show you around town since you're new, maybe I can take you out sometime..". I didn't reply because, well, that's weird. And unprofessional for him. He sent a few more in the next few hours saying "I wish I would have asked you in person, but I wasn't sure if I should in front of your dad" and "I hope you don't think this is weird, I just felt a real connection with you".
Thank you sir, but the only connection I'd like is my phone connection. I walked into Rogers today to ask about my data plan. Apparently he's still working there. ...I'll go back another time.

Whoa, this blew my mind. It's called "Killing Bono"

Some are born great. Some achieve greatness.

Some have greatness thrust upon them.

And some have the misfortune

to go to school with Bono

It's a movie based on the autobiography book, also called "Killing Bono" written by Neil McCormick. It's about the McCormick brothers who went to school in Ireland and started a band at the same time as some of their other friends... These others turned out to be the extremely successful U2. The book tells the story of how he's been living in U2's shadows ever since. Robert Sheehan and Ben Barnes (who I've met and is very handsome) will be playing the McCormick brothers. I who wonder could play Bono. Any suggestions?

If you're a big U2 fan, you should definitley check out the book. The title makes it seem dark and maybe psychotic, but its more like a U2 biography, but told from a luckless man on the side, watching everything go right for them as the whole world around him fell apart. Sometimes it is life's losers who have the most interesting tales to tell.

Am I a bad person for liking this new song by Chris Brown? I have to admit, I feel guilty. He says the song isn't about Rihanna, but after you listen to the lyrics and see the music video starring a girl that somewhat resembles her... you be the judge. After their breakup and the restraining order, he posted a video on youtube with a song he wrote for her called "Changed Man".. but I'm so glad that Rihanna has moved on to a much classier, Matt Kemp.

Today's Entertainment News

• Today is Elvis Presley's birthday. He would have been 75 today.
• Camille Guaty is engaged to british songwriter Sy Rhys Kaye
• Taylor Lautner was announced to be Hollywood's highest paid teen actor
• Gerard Butler was cleared of the battery charges he would have faced from getting into a fight with a photographer. If convicted, he would have spent a few months in jail.
• It's about time... Hannah Montana show is coming to an end.
• Sarah Chalke, from scrubs, had a baby boy. Congrats!
• American Idol starts soon, with new judge, Ellen DeGeneres. The show will also feature a set of guest judges, including Victoria Beckham, Joe Jonas, Shania Twain, Avril Lavigne, and Kristin Chenoweth
• Bob Saget will be starting a new TV show called "Bob Saget's Strange Days". It will follow him travelling and exploring unusual cultures. He'll be experiencing mail order brides, a frat rush, Burning Man, and he will also join a survivalist cult preparing for the end of the world.
• Taylor Swift!!!! It never ends! She has been announced as the top-selling digital artist in history! 

Did you see Steve Carell's acceptance speech at the People's Choice Award? It's clever and amusing and full of "Thats what she said"'s...