Once In A While, I'm Human.

"You know those software statements? 'By opening this package you agree to abide by etc...' I think you effectively sign a contract like that when you have your first kiss, and it's an agreement renewed and extended with every subsequent kiss: I agree that by participating in this kiss I am willing to have my heart smashed to pieces in return for this one moment of bliss"

I don't often come out and tell the world my deepest personal thoughts- not in a online blog post that is. I'll often hide them behind an obscure and ambiguous set of words and metaphors. I sat down today with a pen and paper and nothing came, so I'll just come out and say it: Today is rough. Today things are out of reach. Today is a strawberries, nutella, wine, and Walter Matthau kind of day.
...Oh who am I kidding? Those things could be involved in any kind of day because they make me happy. The only difference is that today I will be enjoying them without getting out of bed.

Sometimes you just need those days. I'm not ashamed. Just tired.

Today's Entertainment News

• This story is pretty outrageous. Keanu Reeves has been involved in a paternity suit by a woman who claims that her 4 adult children were fathered by him. Although he says he has never met the woman, AND the fact that the DNA tests were negative, she still insists that he is the father. Here are her ridiculous reasons why:
  1. He knows hypnosis, and he uses it to tamper with the test results
  2. He is a master of disguise, and according to her, he used this to pass himself off as her ex husband so they could be together.
  She refuses to accept the possibility that it may have actually been her ex husband that she shared a home and children with. She also refuses to provide birth certificates or allow her ex undergo a DNA test to prove his paternity. ...I understand celebrity crushes, but that’s just unreal.
• Blake Lively has been cast as the female lead in the movie Green Lantern, alongside Ryan Reynolds.
• Keshia cole is pregnant and engaged.
• Halle Berry was in Montreal recently and was whisked through security when she asked if she could skip the long line up. This upset many of the people at the airport who were not rich and famous and did have to wait in line like normal people.
• Artie Lange has been released from the hospital after his suicide attempt. He suffered 9 self inflicted stab wounds.

Why I'm not where you are:

We were about to go in different directions.
We did not know how to do anything else.

I'm back in Toronto now. Back to bagged milk. Back to school, 8-5 Monday to Friday. Back to acting and vocal classes. Back to teaching myself the Single Ladies dance on my spare time. Back to coffee dates and long-distance phone calls.

I never used to ask how people's flights were, until my roommate informed me that it's rude not to. I just didn't think there was much you could say about a few hours in a flying machine filled with recycled air and strangers.
Okay let's try this out:

 My flight was good. I read my book. I listened to my ipod. I talked to the person beside me about music and literature. It was dark and there were no clouds and I had the window seat so I watched the beautiful city lights below me. I could see in the window reflection that the boy sitting beind me was writing something on graphing paper. Perhaps a love letter. He had nice handwriting. Much nicer than mine. I don't have nice handwriting. I've come to terms with this. I thought about the things I want to write about and wondered why I'm in school for what I'm in school for. I thought about the time I spent with my piano before I left for the airport. I thought about the song I'd just taught myself and the symphony I'd love to compose one day. I thought about my grandparents and how much I love them and how I wear a locket around my neck everyday with their picture in it. I thought about how I called them and played the piano for them over the phone, and how I hope they loved it. I thought about how much I was looking forward to opening my mailbox after two weeks of being away and receiving the 10 Walter Matthau dvds I ordered before I left. I thought about how much I love Walter Matthau and how I think he is a flawless actor, and how much he reminds me of my Gido. Then I realized that I was thinking too much, which often.. no, ALWAYS happens when I should be sleeping. We arrived in Toronto just after 6 am and I had still not slept. I went to baggage claim and forgot what my baggage looked like because my Mom and I had switched luggage the night before. I recognized it when I saw the neon green and orange locks on the bags and remembered how I wanted to walk to the suitcase store on the other side of the mall to see if they had purple locks, but Sean told me not to be picky and just take the green and orange. Purple is my favorite color.

 Oh, what were we talking about? How was my flight?

..It was good.


I don't have much entertainment news for you today. It's Sunday. And I still haven't slept yet.

Today's Entertainment News

• Youngest Jonas, Nick has kicked off the tour for his new side Project, Nick Jonas and the Administration. His solo project played their first performance at the House of Blues in Dallas last night. The name, "Nick Jonas and the Adminstration" comes from his nick name, "Mr. President", and he occasionally speaks about his thoughts of having a future in politics.
• Matthew McConaughey, 40, and Camila Alves, 26, gave birth to their second child to make a family of four. They have a 17-month old boy named Levi in addition to their new baby girl, Vida Alves.