All I Want is Not To Die On A Day I Went Unseen

[1/6]Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering. When they were ten he asked her to marry him. When they were eleven he kissed her for the first time. When they were thirteen they got into a fight and for three weeks they didn't talk. When they were fifteen she showed him the scar on her left breast. Their love was a secret they told no one. He promised her he would never love another girl as long as he lived. "What if I die?" she asked. "Even then" he said. For her sixteenth birthday he gave her an English dictionary and together they learned the words. "What's this?" he'd ask, tracing his index finger around her ankle, and she'd look it up. "And this?" he'd ask, kissing her elbow. "Elbow! What kind of word is that?" and then he'd lick it, making her giggle. "What about this?" he asked, touching the soft skin behind her ear. "I don't know," she said, turning off the flashlight and rolling over, with a sigh, onto her back. When they were seventeen they made love for the first time, on a bed of straw in a shed. Later-- when things happened that they could never have imagined-- she wrote him a letter that said: "When will you learn that there isn't a word for everything?"...

I'm back in Edmonton! It's really nice to be here. I've never had so many people laugh at my own jokes WITH me. I suppose I will answer how my flight was.. I still don't like that question. [see here] I still think you're obligated to say "It was good". Dry stuff. Small talk. Let's stop making small talk.

I'm not afraid of flying, but I'm a little bit scared of landing. When the plane is descending I think of all the things that could happen between the ground and however thousands of feet in the air I happen to be. I imagine what I'd say in a final text message or phone call:
I was calm. And I loved you so so much.

I'm home now. And my Christmas tree is still up. And my mom is telling me to start thinking of where I'm going to put all of my stuff from my bedroom. I have so much stuff. So many keepsakes and collectibles. I don't want to put things in boxes. Just the thought makes me so sad! So sad!

Today's Entertainment News

• Jay Leno reclaiming his spot on The Tonight Show: his first guests will be Sarah Palin, Lindsay Vonn, and Jamie Foxx
• Sarah Palin's daughter, Bristol Palin, is making her acting debut on the show: "Secret Life of An American Teenager"
• Dick Cheney hospitalized for chest pains
• Adrian Pasdar (Heroes) charged with DUI
• Obama biography to be released in April, written by New Yorker editor and Pulitzer Prize-winning author David Remnick
• Shutter Island made 40.2 million in its first weekend at the box offices
• Cast of Glee to perform for the Obama's at the White House Easter Egg Roll